Isaiah 62:6-7, “I have posted watchmen on your walls, Jerusalem; they will never be silent day or night. You who call on the Lord, give yourselves no rest, and give him no rest till he establishes Jerusalem and makes her the praise of the earth.”
I tend to be so out of focus on normal things it seems. I go to work and forget to do my hair. I sometimes forget to press my clothes…I will drink too much water at night and will have to use the bathroom multiple times at night. I tend to forget my bills when I really try not to. There is just so much more about me that is funny, but I sometimes let those things define me. I struggle with being normal. Or maybe being whole…I am in pieces because I tend to fail at normal life. I define myself by what people say or make fun of me for. I base my worth on forgetting to do my hair, or my clothes I didn’t press, maybe my clothes are too big. All these things can make me feel really insecure because I try so hard to get it right. I get comments like, “Hopeless, or you need counseling Micah. You are so strange. Micah doesn’t know what he is saying. Micah doesn’t think” I laugh it off but then I wonder if I’ll ever get it right.